Posted by rskontos on August 13, 2008, at 12:39:07
In reply to i feel like this, posted by B2chica on August 13, 2008, at 11:07:14
B2c, I have often felt like it is one of mine that has the suicide ideas. My inners hold the hopeless feelings and when things go wrong, that is when those feelings or old feelings resurface, and along with that I think she/they do too.
I ride it out, and hide my meds I would use. I haven't told my pdoc although he is trying to get me to open up. I had tried to quit therapy because my insurance ran out and he is treating me gratis for now. He insisted. He thinks I am worth the effort, although I am not sure it is worth his time.Anyway, I do relate to your thoughts on this. Now how to handle it exactly that I am not sure of.
And I know my depression is not shared by all of us. I am not always depressed. The wellbutrin isn't really working all that great but I am awaiting test results to see how much of all the neurotransmitters my brain actually produces. It might not be the meds fault. It might be my brain.
I have found that in testing I have some medical issues that is definitely contributing to my overall poor feelings physically.
As this new doc explained it the wellbutrin can only work to allow your brain to have more dopamine around if your brain is producing it.
although i get the impression my t/pdoc doesn't really like this new doc that is testing me.
anyway,
I am sorry littleone came out and you were left in bad shape. I have been there too.
I do mainly try to talk to them about how things are and how i am trying to deal with them. Or I watch programs that help me escape.
I must admit lately I just escape. I am escaping from doing much in therapy too.
I hope I haven't made you feel worse. I do understand.
rsk
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