Posted by Dinah on August 5, 2008, at 23:07:48
In reply to Re: x » Dinah, posted by Lemonaide on August 5, 2008, at 22:33:55
> I hate myself so much for all of this, my old T wants to get rid of me because I am nothing but used trash that can't even be recycled. I hate him but I hate myself even more now.
Lemonaide, you know that isn't true. He didn't even terminate you. He clearly didn't think you were used trash. He might now feel that the situation is too uncomfortable for him to enjoy being at the gym, but that has nothing to do with who you are, or what he thinks of you as a person. It has more to do with the situation, and what he thinks about himself as a therapist. It may even be that since he knows your seeing him at the gym is causing you distress, that he wants to do something to help you by not putting you through that.
You aren't to blame for your old therapist's actions. And I have heard nothing that makes me think your therapist (I don't even want to say your new therapist. He's your *therapist* now.) thinks badly of you.
I find that sometimes when I experience a strong emotion like anger, that it seems like the anger door gets opened, and anger pours out over everything. I don't know if it's anything the same for you.
As you know, I'm a great believer in sleep. If you're tired, try to get some sleep. Things often look entirely different after a good night's sleep.
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