Posted by Lemonaide on August 5, 2008, at 18:07:00
In reply to x, posted by Lemonaide on August 5, 2008, at 15:07:01
I had the worse session, I cried so hard I couldn't catch my breath and it was at the end of the session, I went out the back door this time and I just sat in my car and cried forever before I could ever think of driving.
I am wondering if my current T can help me with the issue of my old T. He is being impartial now since my old T contacted him, so now everything out of his mouth is not yes my T DID this, it is IF he did it. When I asked why he couldn't believe me, why he says that, he said he is worried it is going to be turned around that Dr. B said such and such. So there will be no validation on what happened. Part of it is that he has been in the same situation himself, so it is bringing up that for him. I know this is hard for him.
Plus I found out that my old T quit the gym. He said it was for other reasons, not just me. Well I know for a fact that his renewal is in Nov, so that fact he isn't there now, makes me believe it has mostly to do with me. My old T is frugal, he wouldn't want to pay another starting up fee and waste his months he has already paid for.So now he won't talk to me, and he has taken away an possible reason to see me. It is like he just threw me in the trash. He could have helped me with this, after all it is of his doing. I wanted a happy ending I think. I wanted to feel good about him. Now I am hurt again, that he could just throw me away like nothing happened. I don't even get a chance to have things end well. It is like I am being punished for telling. Telling the truth of what he did.
Now I have a T afraid to support me, and an old T who wants nothing to do with me. All because of what my old T did. This isn't fair.My current T said not to be avoident doing the EMDR, I WASN't I was crying so hard, I couldn't even see let alone look at him. So I did the EMDR and felt even worse.
Earlier in session he mentioned something that we never talked about, and finally asked if my old T told him that. I was right, although he didn't say I was but he stammered pretty good when I asked him that. The thing was that it wasn't true, it was my old T defensive stuff he is saying about me. So now my current T believes this what he is saying. Not fair at all
Can I get a T to help me with this? DO you think my current T is the one for this issue?I am just so hurt,it feels like nobody believes me what my old T did and I am being punished for telling.
poster:Lemonaide
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