Posted by rskontos on June 25, 2008, at 8:37:49
In reply to answers to questions rsk muffled. ddnos, posted by star008 on June 24, 2008, at 21:48:46
Star, I am still seeing the same t.
I asked because I dissociate only a little with mine. I tend to dissociate more IRL. A lot lately. I am not sure i recognize the reasons yet. I have yet to really know all that caused my dissociative states in the first place. I have my suspects but I still have no memories, no real ones.
Now, for more help in this area, I have been reading the book Daisym recommended, The Boy Who Was Raised As a Dog by Dr Bruce Perry and at first I read it because she recommended because of the trauma neglect causes in children and how they can still heal. He understands the brain, think neuroscientist. One of the things he says children do is dissociate or become highly sensitized and rage. His section on dissociation is one of the best I have read to describe how the brain handles the trauma and how it leads to dissociation and how the anxiety fits in. In fact, I will read this section over again. Now this book is a hard read due to the cases but if you can get through it I have found the book very hopeful. Because this Dr. used what he learned to help even the most severely neglected, to rebuild their lives.
I would love it if this Doc. had a book on adults still dissociating and maybe he speaks more about it later, I am not done with the book. I will let you know.
All I know to do to help myself is to educate myself. This is what I can do well.
He, Bruce Perry, does not believe the trauma must be remembered or revisited to necessarily get well. That is up to each individual. All i know is I have found this man's words helpful.
I don't talk about integration with my t either. Right now I am at a stand still. I still have a hard time telling him all the secrets. You know what I mean. He thinks they will come with time.
He is patient. I am though trying to move forward in my live. I am afraid that one day, my past will rear its ugly head. I will be triggered by something.
I still have my doubts about my t but then I doubt everyone. But one thing is certain, at least he is one of my cheerleaders and right now that is a good thing.
I understand only a small degree about what dissociation it is and isn't about Star but thanks for the compliment. I feel too numb sometimes still. that worries me. I am beginning to get that is something from my childhood. I worry I was too distant as a mom. I only hope I was there enough for my children.
The nice thing about this book Daisym recommended is that is did give me some hope. Hope that not all is lost for me. And that is something I had thought. I had thought that because of my history, the little I do remember and know from my sisters, I was a lost soul. Now with this book's information and my T's encouragement, I don't feel so lost so much.
I hope you get better too. Muffled is doing well. LL is doing so much better too.
I haven't posted much since I feel like mostly I need to study stuff. But I am still reading here most days.
Take care, Star
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rsk
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