Posted by Dinah on June 15, 2008, at 21:53:27
In reply to Re: Not too happy with my therapist today, posted by Daisym on June 15, 2008, at 20:55:38
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I think you're likely right. My therapist isn't really given to reflection all that much, and it doesn't really seem like him to decide consciously to change boundaries. Or to come to the conclusion when talking to peers or a supervisor that he maybe should change boundaries.
But it seems so perfectly aligned with what he's doing that it's hard to believe that it isn't what's going on, even if it isn't like him.
And when I try to talk about it with him, he says the *stupidest* things. Things so totally out of step with what has happened in the past in our relationship that I wonder if he's taken up drinking to excess.
And I really hate what I've become again. I was so proud of myself for getting past all that set of behaviors and feelings. And now I'm back to wanting to wrap myself around his legs and beg him not to terminate me. The session before last I made him so angry. At the end of the session, he wouldn't cooperate with me in calming myself. He accused me angrily of wanting to wrap things up in nice ribbons by the end of fifty minutes. And yes, of course I do. I don't want to be calling him with hysterical phone calls because we didn't end on a reassuring note. I don't want to be another bother to him when he's already in distress. Yet his actions and my predispositions are combining to exactly that end.
I hate this. I really hate it.
poster:Dinah
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