Posted by rskontos on May 20, 2008, at 14:50:30
In reply to Re: Went to end therapy but he talked me out of-lo » rskontos, posted by raisinb on May 20, 2008, at 13:33:50
Yeah it is that old tug of war, you want something but then it frightens you when you get it, being fearful of something when you do get it.
I did say I wanted a therapist that was present and engaged right?
Boy oh boy you said a mouthful about untrustworthy parents. And I am suppose to replace him for one of those? How the heck do I do that? Do I really want to? And why exactly? Oh I know. I have read so many wonderful posts by other Babblers about how their longtime relationships have helped them overcome the hard quest to have good safe relationships but I am just not sure I have that in me in a face to face therapuetic relationship. As he, my T, pointed out, you really haven't had a relationship since your parents that you did not really control and if you found yourself in one, I imagine you bailed on it quickly. Oh doc how right you are. I never stayed anywhere I lost control for long. It was not safe or a good place to be in.
So I guess there is a good deal of truth in some of what he says, so now to separate it all.
Maybe I will just see what happens. For a while at least.Thanks so much raisinb, it means alot for your insights on this subject. I know you are still dealing with your therapy issues too and I am sure that you are still really sore from that.
rsk
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