Posted by rskontos on March 21, 2008, at 17:34:38
In reply to Re: I feel really bad » Dinah, posted by Deneb on March 21, 2008, at 17:02:07
Too many of my Babblers are feeling really bad and talking about od'ing or did it so please really take care here.
A wise babbler told me when I told him I had suicidal thoughts that he thought maybe it was just that I wanted to free my soul of the pain i was in and not that I really wanted to be well you know. Is this perhaps the case for you. You just want to be free of pain. If so I can relate and so can so many of us here at Babble.
Pain from the rejection of a guy you liked that you are now thinking is not liking you, pain from trying hard at work and it doesn't seem to be enough. But Deneb you are enough for work, and this tomato guy, well maybe he needs time or maybe he isn't the right one. There are others out there. I applaud you for taking a chance on him, and taking a risk and exposing yourself. You did a brave, risky, caring thing in that. And instead of feeling bad, I think you should think about how much effort that took and give yourself a hug for it. How hard that was to do in the first place. I remember the post you posted when you got him the tomato because he liked them. And you gave it too him. You took a chance. It maybe not be working out but you prove to yourself you did it once and you CAN do it again. So be sad for a little while that he isn't the right one, and then move on to a better situation. And when the time is right just say hi to him and let him know in a smile or a hi, that you can be friends. That it is ok.
And at work, all you can do is your best. And that is good enough. Needs improvement just means the boss has a reason for being around. So pooh on them. That does not define you.
Please just take care so you can be here at Babble a long time. Ok.