Posted by rskontos on February 3, 2008, at 18:36:58
In reply to Re: I got strongly triggered by these shows. » Daisym, posted by Dinah on February 3, 2008, at 18:07:53
I must say when Paul talked about how he was upset with his patients and how he was thinking about how he thought if they could only see what was in his mind they would run or something to that effect, I did start thinking about if my T does this. Then I reminded myself I have already thought about that. I confess I often think about how what I say to him comes across. Most of my emails to my therapist is about how I think I came across, as well as if he believe me. Or our discussions on what dissociation is like and I hate those discussions. I get so upset with him For me I have been dissociation during therapy and he was not aware. So he was interacting with one of my alters and he did not know it because they don't want him to know yet--I guess I don't know. And I want him to know he did not know. He kept asking me about if they had did names and I wanted to say well you had the chance to ask them why didnt you, it is not like I am there always. So I often wonder what he thinks and sometimes I get mad about it. I then tell myself I yell at him in my mind so I guess it ok it he yells at me.....my attempt at being fair I guess. I don't know...this is why I am having issues with theray in general as it hard to trust and hard to not trust...I am not sure what I thought this show would do for me...but then I still can't stop watching it either...
For me , I hate the feeling of rambling part and they did show Paul doing that with his therapist....
rsk
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