Posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 14:27:49
You see my dilemna is that I am not sure she will think it is a good idea. In the past, not so distant either, I asked for a recommendation of a p-doc and she discouraged me saying she could managed my treatment by herself and I didn't need one. She can't write meds since she is LMHC. My neuro has been handling my meds but I think at this point I need stuff she wont feel comfortable prescribing and to tell you the truth I don't feel comfortable going into the whole "I've got parts of myself that won't play nice thing". Especially when I am not sure a neurologist will see it. I am not saying a neuro can or can't I am just not sure mine will and I am comfortable with telling her or rather putting myself out there for her to say I am not comfortable with that and then I will be devastated. So it would be better for all for me to just see a p-doc at this point. I am very hestitate to to say all of this. I am not sure I can to her. She told me the last time that God would send my memories to me when I was ready and I almost lost it. Not that I am not a believer but not in therapy I don't want him there right now. I am not ready for that. And I believe I need to explore more of my memories to heal. It bothered my inside parts as well as we argued all the way home and have been upside down since. And now 3 hours before therapy am a mess. Actually when I called the p-doc I was crying and the message I left was crying and he called me back immediately. I was crying when I asked the phone. We talked about 15 minutes. I am better just having an appt. although he did almost pass me along not sure why he changed his mind.
Anyway, I digress, so how many out there think I should tell her about him and who doesnt. This is provided I can. I usually clam up and hide when faced with something I don't want to do. Unless someone else comes out and tells her in an unkind way. I would not do this on purpose since I can't just do that on command.
Hope I am making sense. my emotions are all over the place today. thanks for any insight anyone has. I will be grateful. rk
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