Posted by sunnydays on December 17, 2007, at 23:31:20
In reply to Re: sad » sunnydays, posted by muffled on December 17, 2007, at 23:08:57
> ***Awwww of COURSE you are sad SD. It'd be kinda weird if you wasn't sad.
*** Thanks for saying that muffled. You are such a sweetheart despite the part of you that says you're tough... :) I'm sorry you've been having a hard time lately. But your posts are so nice, they always warm my heart.
> Maybe this will be a good thing.
> Sometimes breaks are hard, speciallly the first week, or 2. But then we survive....and we realize, hey, we CAN, and DO survive. We go on.**** Yeah, I get acclimated and it's ok. But I just am afraid of falling into bad habits I am trying so hard to break. It's easier when I'm immersed in a bad environment.
> Thats nice to touch base w/T while you gone.
> I am SO bad on the phone. For me....I think I'd rather my T just left me a new nice voicemail once a week while gone. Too hard to hear voice, then hang up. Voicemail I can listen to over and over. And if its new 1 every week they FRESH! Fresh voicemail is best!**** Definitely. But my T's voicemails are hit and miss. I wouldn't want to get a miss one on break. Sometimes he's awesome, but sometimes they just sound weird and forced, which he never sounds like in person.
> Sad sucks.
> But y'know, I think you can do this SD. And mebbe you can lean on babble some. And mebbe you will grow with this. Growing hurts like hell so much lotsa times, but we DO GROW. And that is a hard but GOOD thing.**** Yeah. The little girl part of me is just scared of growing up and doesn't want to grow up. She wants someone to take care of her. And I don't want to have to be the person to do it.
> So mebbe when you hurting, you can think s'ok, I GROWING, and I CAN do this, and it hurts real bad, but I gonna take what I have learned and do good coping things and try and find happy times, and THEN I gonna go back to T and say I DID IT!!!!!! HA!!!!! and T be happy that I grow some. And then we can be together again and have appointments again, and I will keep growing, cuz I can do this.
**** Yeah. I do have a whole lot of ideas we've worked on of things to do over break so it's not so bad. So I'll try those.
> These are my thots for you.
> Mebbe they make some sense or no.
> Just wishing you the best OK SD?
> M**** Thanks muffled. Take care of yourself. You're a real special person.
sunnydays
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