Posted by emily99 on October 4, 2007, at 14:13:55
Hello everyone! I've been enjoying reading your posts, and now I think it's time I opened up to you.
I was dx with BPD a year ago, and am just now understanding what it really is. I believe I have had it as far back as I can remember.
I am now on disability, and because of it, lost my only client (I was a software engineer).
I've wondered if I have DD as well. I often say to myself "Let's" do this or that. I will have to bring this up to my pdoc. I am in search of a therapist or psychologist.
I have had horrific life events that I'll explain briefly. If you think this will be a trigger for you, please don't read further.
I watched my Nanny drown when I was 4, was molested by a train conductor the same year, I was in a serious car accident, my mother shot and killed my father when I was 14, I was date raped on my 15th birthday and got pregnant, married an abusive man 10 yrs my sr, who killed himself in 1990. My 2nd husband died of cancer, third marriage lasted less than a year, my brother and sister are dying of Huntington's Disease, and my oldest son committed suicide several years ago.
I have been in a deep depression and am having hallucinations. Most recently, I saw a real hunk of a guy walk in my bathroom!
I have to drive an hour to see my pdoc every month, but I really like him. I live in northern New Mexico. I suspect that the T he recommends will be there as well, so I'm not looking forward to a long drive every week. He's in Taos, where Julia Roberts lives. Maybe I'll pass her on the street one day!
I look forward to hearing back from all of you. You're a great group.
Emily99
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