Posted by polarbear206 on September 26, 2007, at 9:27:12 [reposted on September 27, 2007, at 1:04:42 | original URL]
In reply to sexual question- wrong forum i think -so sorry, posted by reese7194 on September 25, 2007, at 18:20:47
> hi. this is a question that i guess has no answer. it's something that has been eating at me for quite some time but have been able to push it away and call it b*llshit and just something to bitch about.
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> okay. this has been growing in- intensity over the past few years. before i thought it was just a part of who i was to go a long period of time without intamacy. what i mean by that is sex,making love. in the past it has been years. but i was able to fool around with someone. if i did ever have sex with them which i did very few times i would want to cut myself to pieces afterwards.
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> the only time i was able to was with a girlfriend / someone i truly cared for.
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> my explanation for this was simple. i only wanted to sleep with people i was seriously involved with etc...
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> but this theory seems or feels like it has become somewhat i have trouble believing because my ability has grown even more intense. i can not even imagine or fantasize of making love. or almost any intamcy.
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> but it is not physical. physically everything is fine. which i am fortunate since i have been on every med known to man at this point. even strange off-label meds that are never given out.
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> since i can remember from when i was fourteen i found orgasms to be extremly painful. emotionally. like falling from a building. when i got older the effects of utter crashing and the utter need to cut myself would come over me. i have always been a cutter and have always had huge food issues. when i got older the crying began after i orgasmed and the others as well. huge guilt, cutting etc after. crying. cutting.
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> now it has been a year since i have made love / sex with something i find odd or scary about this is the fact that this has become normal and not a long period of time. but this is absurd.
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> i am not a bad looking guy. i am terrified of girls / women. very shy. but of recent i have without choice found it impossible to even think / imagine having sex. it is a wall i can not see over and can find no logic from where it came from.l.
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> i have given thought of possibly seeing a therapist who might specialize in something like this. i have no memory or if there is a memory it is the idea of someone. not the action.
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> okay. i apologize if this is off topic which it is.
You are punishing yourself for experiencing sexual pleasure. Please seek out a therapist to help you get to the root of the problem. You owe it to yourself to have a healthy sexual appetite.PB
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