Posted by LadyBug on September 23, 2007, at 23:28:04
In reply to called my T... great conversation, posted by sunnydays on September 23, 2007, at 22:28:04
I'm glad you shared this. You are doing good work and your T is good for you. You will get past this stage in therapy. I've been there and it's painful. I'm slow but my relationship with my T finally feels good and not so painful anymore. I never thought I'd get here.
You're determined to work hard and you will get to where it feels better and you don't miss him so much. I think it's great you could tell him you want to be inside him. I'm sure he understands. There is nothing wrong with missing him and wanted to feel your connection to him.
I remember in the beginning of our work, I'd panic every Friday because I didn't know where my T would be on the weekend. I knew she was in her office Monday through Friday, but the weekend always caused me anxiety. She and I came up with something that helped me over come that fear. Every Friday she wrote me a note on some stationary and sent it to me in the mail. It was in a Lavender colored envelope which I grew to love the color lavender. I looked forward every week for over a year to her note to me. I would carry it in my pocket for days and read it many times. It gave me strength to get through and it also taught me that she was there for me, I could count on her no matter what. I learned a lot. I still have those notes in a box, put away.
I know from your post your T cares very much about you. I can tell he means a lot to you and is helping you through.
Keep hanging in there as he told you to do. You can do it. I hope you feel better by now.
LadyBug
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