Posted by ClearSkies on September 21, 2007, at 15:15:23
We talked today about what exactly triggered me this week in New York - and it wasn't the 9/11 stuff, but the show we went to see on Broadway. It was Spring Awakening, and from the moment the story unfolded onstage, I started to weep, and I pretty much haven't stopped since. A very compelling story, with lots of teenage angst and coming-of-age stories intertwined. To say it resonated with me is my personal understatement of the year. This was a massive show for me to see, just enormous. It's reverberating in my brain, almost a week after seeing it.
Seeing the show triggered my memory of my own teenage angst-ridden story. It was just about that time when I discovered how well alcohol could suppress my feelings and pain, and it's only now that these memories are being revisited, in all their painful, full colour glory. My therapist assures me that processing these memories will go quickly. I sure hope so. I really haven't thought about this stuff for 20 or more years, not without the filter of alcohol on it.
Geez, this hurts. And I can't IMAGINE talking to my husband about this stuff, or anybody really, apart from my therapist. And we didn't even talk about it, more like talked around it, did a little dance of words around it. I wouldn't have thought a week ago, that this is how I'd be feeling today. What a strange trip.
CS
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