Posted by DAisym on September 14, 2007, at 17:35:17
In reply to coming apart - trigger, posted by DAisym on September 14, 2007, at 1:36:13
Thank you for all the warm replies. I'm touched that I'm known so well that you guys can remind me what might help. It is easy to forget the little things at 2am.
I talked to my therapist yesterday about how awful I've been feeling. He wants to check in a lot over the weekend. So we talked on the phone a little while ago. I read to him about the scream - and he said it makes sense to him that little daisy feels this way. He talked about the work we are currently doing - really emotionally knowing on a deeper level what happened and the enormous fear that is present after the nightmares. I've been sleeping about 2 hours a night because I'm afraid to sleep and then afraid to go back to sleep. We talked about getting in touch with pdoc and getting another sleeping aid.
And then he said he leave me a message to help if I woke up again tonight. OH MY GOD. OK -- he does great phone -- I've written about that before. But this message! He just talks to me like he is right here, soothing me after a bad dream. He tells me nothing can hurt me as long as we are connected and he tells me we are very connected. He tells me I don't need to hurt myself several times. And he talks slowly, pacing his words, with the right pauses and the right intonations. And then he says "now go back to sleep. You are totally safe. Good night." -- He said Good night at 3 in the afternoon! I just love it. And I've cried for 1/2 an hour straight.
I'm so glad I have him and Babble. I suspect it is going to be a tough weekend. :(
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