Posted by Honore on September 6, 2007, at 11:02:40
In reply to Re: Really bad dream » Honore, posted by RealMe on September 6, 2007, at 9:59:46
Thanks so much everyone.
I did put a board behind a bookcase that's near the door, which make it hard to push open (it's an open door between my studio and the rest of the apartment and there's no chain on that front door, which also opens into the hall). I'm going to try to put a chain on it today.
There's the bookcase, which I couldn't move even an inch last night. I guess I could take out the books and move it and put the books in. So there's at least that. Also a few xanax helped.
I don't know why I had that dream; it was so much worse than anything I've dreamed for a long time. My SigO's uncle is dying, and I think that plus the ruined painting really just upset me a lot, even though I don't know him.
It's reassuring that I'm not the only one. I'm terribly demoralized about the painting that I've ruined. It's just that I tend to ruin things after they're okay, and then get so impatient, and can't seem to make anything that finally works. Although I don't know why that seems so violent and devastating-- well, devastating, I understand.
Sorry. I'm rambling. It helps a lot to know that I'm not alone, though. I'll try to remember that tonight (along with stick, chain, xanax). Thanks so much for your good thoughts, including 80 pounds of dog and all the other protections).
Honore
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