Posted by sunnydays on June 7, 2007, at 23:05:51
In reply to Re: holding tension in your body » sunnydays, posted by Poet on June 7, 2007, at 20:52:40
> Hi Sunnydays,
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> I hold tension in my body, too. Even as a kid I really didn't relax, my body was stiff.**** I'm not sure if I did or not as a kid. I don't remember things like that well enough. I don't remember anyone remarking on that, so I don't think I did so much then. I would always feel sick and stuff, though, and I believe that I was depressed as a child, which would make sense based on what I was going through.
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> My anxiety has been higher lately and the last time I saw Dr. Clueless she told me that when I'm feelng it I should think about what memory the current event is triggering from my past. I don't handle criticism well and at work if I make the slightest mistake and even if they correct it nicely I have instant anxiety. I think it goes back to failing math classes and ending up feeling stupid in school. Then again, why can't I just take a pill and it'll go away? Sigh.**** I don't know. I'm sorry you've been feeling anxious lately. I hate that feeling. A part-time job I had a while ago (in a retail store doing sales - nothing high-stress, I was in high school) I remember being so anxious about because I thought if I made the tiniest mistake I would get fired. I had nightmares the entire first summer. And I still have problems with that. I don't know what to do about it, and I'm too embarrassed to tell my T because I know that the mistakes I get most freaked out about are the littlest things that don't really matter.
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> I hate feeling little in therapy. It happens alot when my T is running energy work on me. I rarely cry in therapy and the first time I did was when I felt like a little girl. She talked real quite to me, I probably would have screamed had she used the wrong tone of voice. I'm sorry your T saying your name was so upsetting.***** Yeah. It was weird - it wasn't even an angry tone or anything, just a little bit louder because he was trying to get my attention. But he apologized and I felt reassured enough when I left so that I didn't freak out, which is a big step for me. What is energy work? I've never heard of it.
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> I understand feeling like you shouldn't have been born. I tell that to my T all the time.**** Yeah - it has to do with being born so early in my parents' marriage. I feel bad because they never got to enjoy being together without me and like maybe if I hadn't been born they would have had a happier marriage. But I like being alive, so I am glad I'm alive, I just wish I wasn't born, and that's where I get tied up in knots. I hope you and I can relax a little bit this weekend. :)
sunnydays
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