Posted by Happyflower on May 22, 2007, at 17:54:22
In reply to Re: I am not doing very well » Happyflower, posted by Nathan_Arizona on May 22, 2007, at 16:58:40
I asked my DH to go grocery shopping with me tonight because there isn't anything in the house and I don't have the energy to even push the cart around. I told him I think I am depressed. He said he thinks I am too. He has been through it before. He seemed to almost care, well he went to the store with me and made some meal decisions, which I find the hardest sometimes. (i could just eat my fiber one honey clusters all day and night). We managed to not even fight and he didn't make me feel like a sh*tty wife for once.
Then as he was putting the bags in the car, my T called! It was weird, but he had a cancellation tomorrow at 11:00. I thanked him, now I have to try to pull myself together and take a bath to go tomorrow. I guess there is some hope. My doctor said I could take two xanax, I think I will try it now. I just want the night to go as fast as possible and zone out. One zanax made me stop crying a bit or less, so maybe 2 will zonk me out. I am happy I see my T, but scared too. He seemed happy to be able to see me. But I feel like I will totally lose it when I see him. I feel naked and bare emotionally, I don't want to fight anymore.
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