Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 22, 2007, at 16:43:28
In reply to Re: I am not doing very well, posted by Happyflower on May 22, 2007, at 15:45:26
My dear Happyflower,
You sound like you're in the middle of depression and just opening your eyes to it.Don't be afraid of it. Don't fight it. But care for it, just like you would care for a sick child.
You are having problems "connecting" with your T on many levels. You can't get an appt. You can't communicate with him. That's okay. There are other places where you can find peace until you get help.
Even though it hurts to move out of your misery, and you want to crawl into a safe space, remember that there are those who you care about, and who care about you. Talk to them, allow them to understand what you are going through. Just as you have shared with us. Talk to your husband. You may not feel "connected" to him, but he is human, and probably will respond with compassion.
Find a small bit of beauty in your world today. A flower in your bountiful garden. A smile on your child's face, the wagging of a tail.
Would you judge yourself so harshly if you were another person. Remember all the times when you have cared for others, and share a little of that care with yourself. You deserve it.
Talk to us too. We care.
This may be a good time to talk with a doctor or psychiatrist about medication, like an antidepressant. There are a lot of options. At first you may feel strange, asking for help in the form of little pills that make you feel funny. In time, you may learn to recognize that the pills are there so that you can care for and about yourself. (although even after a year I struggle with taking the little buggers!)
We care-- Keep us posted
-Ll
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