Posted by wishingstar on April 24, 2007, at 21:29:49
Thank you everyone for all your support and for asking how I'm doing. I'm starting a new thread because the other one has gotten so long and sort of lost in the page now...
As caraher said, I'm back from the hospital. I actually got out Fri evening. Sorry for not posting until now. I liked this hospital a lot better than the other one I've been to. The doctor changed my meds, but they ended up being too expensive so I saw my pdoc again on Monday and she changed them again. I'm taking nortryptlin now. We'll see.
Overall, I'm feeling a lot better than I was a week ago. Calmer. Still hurting and having bad feelings some but they dont feel so overwhelming and oppressive. I was bored out of my mind a lot there, but I think the boredom was actually good - it forces my mind to slow down and stop spinning a bit.
My T came and saw me when I was in the hospital. It was so weird to see her out of context like that. I was laying in bed in pajamas when she walked in! But it was really nice to see her. I think it was a big step for rebuilding that connection we've lost recently. She also called me at home to check on me on Saturday and again today (Tuesday). Very sweet of her.
I had a really great case manager while I was in the hospital. As caraher mentioned, she found this program that I think will be really good for me. Its DBT-inspired (not traditional DBT exactly though) and all group work.. which means I can still see Ginny while I'm in it. The first few weeks you go 3 days a week for 3 hours at a time and learn all the DBT skills. Then after those few weeks, it switches to just one hour a week (also group). My insurance doesnt cover it, but they said they can probably work something out for me. My intake appt is on Friday so we'll see. I think having more frequent contact will help me a lot.
I also went on a date on Sunday! Unbelievable, huh? I isolate a LOT so its very unusual for me. I told my T on the phone and she was blown away. The guy is 5 years older and oddly enough, someone I met last time I was in the hospital (in March). It went really well. I'm sure I'll see him again later this week. There's the possibility that it's not the healthiest thing for me to be doing right now and Ginny said we'll talk on Thursday (dum dum dum) but it's still really neat.
Laurie, old T from out of town, also emailed me and told me that it's okay to email her if I just need to vent, or have someone hear my feelings, etc etc. She said she'll worry about responding and keeping the boundaries clear so I dont need to stress over that. How nice is that? I miss her. I wont do it frequently but it's nice to know she's okay with it.
Thanks everyone for all your support here recently. I'll keep you updated. You all are great.
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