Posted by gazo on April 22, 2007, at 8:08:15
In reply to Re: when is therapy too much? » gazo, posted by Happyflower on April 21, 2007, at 23:55:52
i think you are right in part at least. i am afraid and avoiding... but it's because i am afraid to risk trust and closeness and then lose it before i can work through things.
i am going through so much turmoil. You know the crisis i have looming.. and still no date set for that yet (blessing and a curse). That puts me on edge completely.. and then even considering that we might talk about my past just shoves me over.
i don't know how to cope so i cope through drinking, partying, and other self destructive and dangerous behaviours. Sometimes i take too many pills just half hearted.. i cope the way i coped back when many things went wrong in my life. Some think i'm just trying to act out or look cool.. but it hurts, it hurts really bad and i haven't been able to stop myself. It's cope the only way i know how or find escape... the coping i have is safer.
how can i risk going deeper and then having it taken away? You know some of my situation.. you know that risk is real. What do i do?
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