Posted by gazo on April 2, 2007, at 11:22:12
In reply to Re: one down one to go » gazo, posted by Dinah on April 2, 2007, at 11:03:21
> Then you do know what you want, and while you might need to remind him from time to time, I think you can do that.
i sort of do i guess.. i just have that strong feeling that i can't name. i want him to have intuition. i think he might have what i want, but i don't know for sure yet and so i am scared. i guess what i want is for him to be able to "read" me.
> I also tell him what I tend to do when I'm unable to express myself and ask him to prod me a bit when he sees those signs.
that much i have done. i told him directly that i often can't make words come out. At least once while i was there i struggled with it and i pointed that out to him. Maybe a hand signal is a good idea for me. i think it becomes obvious that i have something i can't say or can't find words for.
> Then you say exactly that. You might want to even keep a written version of that on hand, in case you can't even find those words.
thanks dinah :o) That is a great idea.
> I'm not saying it's not possible that he won't be the therapist for you. And that you won't have ways of knowing that.
i really think he is. He has said a number of things which have peaked my interest. i am just completely terrified... of him, of myself, of having it fail and even of having it work. i mean, i *know* how to live with being completely dysfunctional. As much as it is broken i am familiar with it.
> He laughs at me and says I'm like his wife "If you don't know what's wrong, I'm certainly not going to tell you."
Lol! That is perfect. i am embarrassed to admit that is probably what it is i am saying now. How much of "getting it" or reading me is his job though? Doesn't he need to be able to figure some of this out when i don't know or don't see the connections?
> He doesn't say so outright, but I suspect that he's telling me that this is therapy and therapy is the place where we learn to use words to express things.
But how? If i don't know or can't tell him...