Posted by cubic_me on February 3, 2007, at 5:47:35
In reply to Re: Why can't I talk? (long...what else is new?) » Poet, posted by peddidle on February 2, 2007, at 23:37:48
You sound so similar to me a few years ago. Dysthymia, then sudden bereavement with all sorts of things attached to it.
I started therapy with a wonderful therapist, but I found it SO difficult to say anything. I'd reherse it over in my head, write lists of what I wanted to say when I saw her, but still only a fraction of what I wanted to say came out. After about a year and a half I started to get much better at talking (with a lot of gentle persuasion!), but I still find it really difficult.
Unfortunately she retired after 2 years of me seeing her, and I went to group sessions for a year, where I didn't talk at all, but the improvement I made in therapy the first time has stuck with me and even though the two people I've seen since have said I don't talk much (and there was a lot of silence with one of them), they'd shudder to think what I was like before!
I really hope things get better for you. Writing something and bringing in to session seems like a good compromise where you won't get more dependent on her between sessions. I usually found if my T picked a topic, I was more likely to talk about it because it seemed like she *wanted* to talk about that subject, whereas if I picked I'd think I'd be boring her about something she didn't want to know!
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