Posted by Dinah on December 19, 2006, at 12:07:33
In reply to Re: Does anyone have a signal? » Dinah, posted by Poet on December 19, 2006, at 10:53:28
We talked about it today. He said he'd suggest something that wouldn't be a gesture that could possibly mean anything else, like holding up two fingers. I told him I'd try to remember, and try to do that, and he'll try to remember what it means.
I felt afraid of him today, and he saw that and insisted we talk about Friday. My conclusion was that I had to try harder to be a better girl, and not bother him too much by seeing him too often.
He started off by apologizing and saying he knew he could have done better Friday, and his explanation was that he *did* care about me, and my decisions were making him anxious and that came out as anger.
I think it will take a few sessions to work this one out, but I think maybe it's workable. Maybe it's a good thing that he'll be away for a week or so. He still wants me to come in three times a week for right now, and I'm still leary of that.
I don't know. I think who I am and how I interact pushes a few buttons for him. Well, I'm almost positive of that. It's one of the many reasons I never did have any desire to spend time with him outside the therapy room. I'm just not feeling quite robust enough to take that philosophically.
Still, I appreciated how hard he tried this weekend and today to make me feel like he cared about me and didn't dislike being around me. He's a very good person, I think.
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