Posted by cutter calm he hon on November 17, 2006, at 22:30:30
In reply to Re: admiting to stalking u T » Dinah, posted by pegasus on March 16, 2004, at 16:54:43
I have done some pseudo stalking. I don't like to think of it as stalking but maybe it is. My first T I didn't have to because he freekin took me to his house. Our boundaries were way messed up and I have BPD. There were some sessions that went way over an hour. One went 5 hours! I'm not lying.
Then I went to a psych hospital and got totally obcessed with the female therapist I had there. I totally convinced myself that I was bisexual because of that. I watched her every moment I could. It wasn't hard either because of course her office was in the same building that I lived in. I'd watch her come and go to work. Finally followed her to the front gates and saw what car she drove. I watched and watched her. When I got out of the hospital I went mad googling her. Found out a lot about her and so forth but she was in Texas and I was in Florida. Lucky for both of us.
Now I have a new T that I've been seeing for a few years now. He's smart as hell and knows how to deal with a person like me with BPD. We have strict boundaries but they did not form until I came to session once admitting that I found out where he lived by googling him and hen driving by his house. Since then I promised to never do it again so he would not terminate our relationship. I did keep looking at his house on google earth. I finally got past this obcession for the most part but receintly I found out where he takes his martial arts class. Then he let it slip which day he goes. So this past week I went there and saw his car outside. I did sit there for a while and wanted to watch him as he walked out but I did something new . . . I decided he should his privacy and I drove away.
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