Posted by wishingstar on October 4, 2006, at 21:37:32
In reply to Re: I ran into Anne hahahah, posted by pegasus on October 4, 2006, at 19:44:11
This might sound odd, but I just have this urge to hug for you what you posted. I'm not a touchy person in general. But I feel so heard, and I really appreciate that. I know you all understand.
Incompetence. That's a hard word for me to swallow. Not that I dont believe it... I guess I dont want to believe it. I mean, does this really qualify as incompetence? It's certainly done a LOT more harm than good, so I guess yes, that qualifies. Thats strange to admit to myself, about someone I trusted so much and tried so hard to get to like me and care. But her lack of empathy and understanding isnt my fault. I keep repeating that only to remind myself.
I was planning to make that call this afternoon (to tell her nevermind), but decided to put it off a day or two. I dont want to leave a message on impulse and later regret what I did (or didnt and should have) said. I want to feel more clear about this before I react. Because you're right, she wont get it if she hasnt by now. I think a small part of me, even now, hopes that I'll leave a message in a day or so and she'll get it and respond. How dense am I? Haha.. I know better than that. But I still hope. Just like with my parents. I still hope.
Anne really has done damage. In the end, she has done more harm than good. I want her to know that. Mean as it sounds, I want her to feel bad about it. That's terrible, but its the truth. How can you be a therapist and be this clueless and/or uncaring? How can she possibly do it? Or do I hold some special place in the list of clients-who-drive-anne-crazy and its a response to that? Either way its unacceptable.. but I just dont get it. This is just crazy. What else could I have possibly done?
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