Posted by Lindenblüte on October 4, 2006, at 23:10:32
In reply to Re: I ran into Anne hahahah » pegasus, posted by wishingstar on October 4, 2006, at 21:37:32
"Hi Anne, this is Wishingstar. I was surprised to see you at Panera. I hope you enjoyed your lunch. I have decided that you haven't been a good therapist for me, and I just wanted you to know that. I don't need an entire session with you to express that. It would be a waste of my time, and probably yours as well. I just wanted you to know that I felt abandoned by you when I was rapidly deteriorating. I came to you for help, which is what people need to do when they're in crisis. Instead, I had to go to the hospital when you were unavailable to me. I was still willing to give you a chance, even after that betrayal in my trust, but you decided to drop me as your client. I hope one day you will have the maturity and experience to look back on this episode and learn something from it. I would hate for any other human being on this Earth to have to go through this kind of pain. Part of me still strongly wishes that things had gone much better between us, but I am learning that it's more important to take care of myself now, and I'm realizing that there is no way to patch the damage done to our therapeutic relationship. I have been in contact with a new Therapist. While I am optimistic about my future, I just wanted you to know that I'm going to be hurting for a long time about the way that my last Therapist handled my problems."
Okay-- This is ME, putting words into your mouth, but I don't think you're crazy at all for feeling major conflict about seeing Anne again. Part of you trusts her, part of you distrusts her, part of you wants to fix things and make a happy clean termination, part of you is furious at her neglect of your care during your crisis. Honestly, you'd be crazy if you DIDN't feel some conflict!
Sorry to go off on a rant. I have some strong feelings about my oldT, and yet I think that he really really helped me feel better, never violated my trust, and handled many many situations with incredible skill and sense. Plus, we got along really well on a personal basis, even though I found him very intimidating at times (figuring out WHY I had these transferrence issues was they key to me understanding the need to move on to a newT).
And, from someone who terminated a mere 2 weeks ago tomorrow, and has already got good feelings about her newT, I think and I HOPE that things are going to turn around for you soon, Wishingstar. My newT had a wonderfully kind voice on the phone. I just felt like it was going to be better.
(((((WishingStar))))))
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