Posted by muffled on September 30, 2006, at 12:06:11
OK. I working on a theory. This ikid(inside kid) likes T. lots. Most of us like her. So I wondering if there's mebbe some probs w/the fact that we like her in our varying ways. Wether cuz she knows stuff, that how can she possibly beleive we ok? Mebbe T is just pretending to like us. Maybe its all a lie. Or mebbe its that there's still some idea on SOMEones part that there's something ugly bout us, that she scared to say cuz then she thinks T. will run away. Yeah, I think it must all be commming from that one kid primarily. Cuz if T.ran away, I'd be a little dissapointed, but a body has goto do what a body goto do, so that'd be fine. I'd just wish her well. But the ikid that I dealing with here seems to have a diff. 'connection', or perhaps, desire for connection? For some reason she must still think there's something wrong w/her. I don't think there is, but she REALLY thinks there is(bam-emot-shot, ouch). I wish she could somehow communicate it to adult me, cuz being as how she a kid, there's a huge probability she's blown something simple and rational out of proportion. My irl kid does that. She assumes I hate her cuz I chew her out for something else. We go over that one again and again. But how do I tell this kid? She must be listening, cuz she sent me an emotion just a minute ago....
I think she's hopeful, yet terribly afraid, and so, so sad. But she NOT destroyed, just scared. Hypervigilant all the time. I wish she could talk, but she don't. Mebbe she will when she less scared of me. Mebbe she needs to understand Jesus is with her, cuz I think maybe she afraid of evil too. Real afraid. Mebbe I can do visualization and she can see it too. Good thot.
She makes me real tired...So thats as far as I got. This i.kid is causing me alot of trouble. I need to deal w/her.
I dunno what to do?
Any ideas appreciated.
Thanks,
Muffled
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