Posted by Jost on September 23, 2006, at 12:39:21
In reply to Re: Dear god, posted by Susan47 on September 23, 2006, at 11:59:36
Susan47, I don't know you. I'm sorry, though, that you're so hard on yourself.
Maybe maybe you'll find a better T.
Hope and belief in the possiblity of good things-- can be a terrible burden-- when balanced against and on that razor edge of despair.
Your children see the best in you, and love that, even if you don't, right now.
You're right, though-- it would hurt them to lose you, deeply.
Even if you aren't all that you want to be--- when there's life, there *is* hope--
there's a future even if you can't believe in it-- and don't want to contemplate it-- where something better is possible.
Don't try to think about that, if it's hard. Just think about today, and the small, even invisible-to-you, good that your presence does for those who love you. That matters, so much.
I hope you to keep on with the struggle, despite everything.
Jost
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