Posted by James K on August 21, 2006, at 1:37:26
In reply to Re: Ramble on! » finelinebob, posted by James K on August 21, 2006, at 1:15:14
I don't know why I feel the need to apologize for posting, but I do. Still a little disjointed, but bear with me. Listening to music now.
My previous shrink I mentioned above, In the place, early, he had me pegged as maybe a time-bomb type guy. like building to something really bad. (I'm talking about the really negative, violent aspect of my problem). Later (a few days later) (I only got a few weeks with this brilliant world class type guy). He modified me to a guy who might He said " If godzilla walked in the room, you would take him on so nobody else would have to" as a protecter type guy role. (I symbolically kind of did this while I was there. He must of got a report)
He was right on both counts. But drink withdrawal and anxiety kept me from being very coherent verbally or mentally then or now.
I wonder if That drawing of negativity on myself against my hatred of conflict reflects a Middle child kind of thing. And a hastening of the inevitable.
If I caused it and did it on purpose, I set the terms and can predict the outcome and am in total control of whatever happens.
I'll give it a rest now.
James k
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