Posted by James K on August 20, 2006, at 17:38:35
I've got to talk to somebody. I'm not asking for an investment from any of ya'll. I just gotta.
I've been posting here for around 8 months. Some posts lately have reminded me of how I was when I came here. I was psychologicaly messed up right then, but intellectually I was way ahead of now. I was in a thread elsewhere a few days ago where I was following and refuting a complicated logic stream, and it felt good to use that. I'm acting on a base kind of animal instinct these days. (and the drinking and sitting and staring that goes with depression).
My partner as far as I remember threatened to have me locked up again two nights ago. I'm depressed, so not violent. Dang.
I don't want to be on Meds, and I don't want to be in treatment. Wants. Tomorrow is a Monday. If I don't make some small positive steps, I need to be aware that I didn't.
This is an attempt to impose some order into the picture by saying and perhaps organizing an overiding thought process to the eat, drink, pee, move to this room, kind of program I'm running right now. .
Dinah said some things about radical acceptance and perception of authority that I need to remember again and apply before I erase this file.
thanks for being here.
James K
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