Posted by Jost on August 15, 2006, at 23:49:19
In reply to I SCREWED up dammmit :-(, posted by muffled on August 15, 2006, at 20:59:58
Muffled, don't panic. Your T may not have thought/felt what you're afraid of. Could be she didn't handle things well--maybe didn't say the right thing, or the thing that would help you, in the momentt
Maybe she's unsure of herself, and that came across to you as disapproval. Esp. because she might have worried that she had hurt or disturbed you with talking about integration.
Even if she was weirded out-- because she hadn't realized--remember, that alone can cause people to feel strange-- if they have thought they understood, and suddenly realize they haven't--
And even if you wrote something that might seem intense, or be about something your T doesn't understand yet-- and she wanted to wait rather than react too quickly. I'm sure she's going to want to understand better. And you might understand better with her-- both of you might find out new things about you.
Don't close the door. Give your T, and yourself, some time.
Most importantly: You haven't screwed up. That's the one thing here that I"m sure of. You took a chance. That's great.Okay? This could take a while-- and it could be bumpy, but it's an important important step.
Get some rest, and have a little faith.
Jost
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