Posted by littleone on June 22, 2006, at 21:44:28
In reply to Re: Lurking instead of posting » littleone, posted by annierose on June 13, 2006, at 6:49:59
> Don't be too hard on yourself. It's hard for lots of us to talk. IRL I'm chatty, in therapy I too have to pull the words out, think about what I'm willing to share and endure silences. Therapy is just hard. Our souls aren't used to someone peering into them so deeply. It's uncomfortable.
I don't think I'm going to make sense here, but I'll try anyway.
I felt real off balance and antsy after reading your post. In one sense I understand what you're saying because I hear you all say it directly and indirectly every day. But in another sense I just couldn't believe it. It's like you guys walked into therapy already able to talk. You should be a big step ahead of me. I think it was like I thought I'd done the hard part (being able to talk) and the rest should be a lot easier (actually taking about hard stuff). I think I didn't like hearing that none of it's easy.
I'm not saying your post was a bad post, it wasn't, it really made me think about some stuff. And I didn't mean anything bad in anything else I said. I just wanted you to know that it really gave me a lot to think about.
> Your T sounds special.Yeah he is. Although the other day he said something about how I've mad with him in the past and I said "And I'm sure I'll be mad with you again in the future" and he said "Yes, I'm sure you will". And he said it real nice and with a smile like it was perfectly okay for me to be mad with him again if I want. Which is kinda nice. I've never had that okayness in my family.
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