Posted by susan47 on May 29, 2006, at 22:51:54
In reply to Re: Anger here, maybe a trigger, maybe dissension, posted by cecilia on May 29, 2006, at 3:30:57
I have been reading a book lately and I realize as I'm reading that I fit right smack-dab into the definition of a person who has, at the least, borderline tendencies.
I can't deny it, I can't ignore it, it is there staring me in the face. I don't know why or how or when this was created in me, but it definitely was there.
Now I have a serious question for anyone who's reading.
Where to next?
Is it possible for someone to recognize that they have these disabling features, and overcome that?
To no longer have it be a part of a life.
My life.
To be well, to be whole, and strong, complete in being a giving, kind, loving and gentle person. Someone like my therapist was to me. He was more civil than I ever was. He was kind, and insightful, and he tried so very very hard to be the model of everything good that a therapist could be.
I abused this so much. I didn't understand who or what I was, what was going on inside me that created such monstrous things, things I didn't and don't understand, things which I truly want to understand. Sometimes, it's better to let it be. But sometimes there can be a vision so strong, so large, that it overcomes all obstacles.
I believe that.
I have to believe that.
poster:susan47
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