Posted by Larry Hoover on May 28, 2006, at 10:02:30
In reply to I feel so pathetic, posted by Racer on May 28, 2006, at 2:39:31
> Anyway, I went through the archives yesterday, and found my old posts, and copied andpasted them into a Word document, which I am now editing to take to my therapist, so that I can talk about the parts that bother me. Like, you know, ignoring my gut; not speaking up early on about problems; etc.
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> I just feel so damned pathetic.{{{{{{{{little Racer}}}}}}}}
You feel yucky because you paralyze yourself, right dead square in the yuck. Do you feel that? That's what I think I see. Like you've paused the video.
But what would be next, if you let the tape (life itself) play again? What if you honoured your gut, in the very next instant?
You have an opportunity, at every instant, including this yucky persistent instant, to honour your gut.
It sounds hokey, sometimes, but picture you, your adult self, as you see yourself now, taking your image of your little self, the one you remember yourself as, when you think of your child self, and hold her the way you wish you had been held. The way you know you can comfort a child today. Just do it, in your mind. Give her the very best hug you have. And hold her, until she's ready to leave your embrace on her own.
I feel so (Em)pathetic.
Lar
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