Posted by B2chica on May 24, 2006, at 12:36:05
In reply to Re: Why I freaked out and needed my T ***triggers » B2chica, posted by happyflower on May 24, 2006, at 12:06:53
don't you just *love* those 'fixers'. you know. somethings are broken and aren't meant to be fixed. i don't know for sure if this applies to your relationship with you mother or not. but from my point of view with my mother. things are as they are going to be. i don't want or expect a loving mother/daughter relationship. too much pain has been caused. with time and thearpy i can forgive. but not forget. and quite frankly i don't want to forget, or 'mend' our relationship. i like her at a distance. it makes it more comfortable for me to live. and that's what i need to do.
same for you happyflower.and BOY do i understand the 'obey your parents and always forgive' cr@p. people have always acted like i have the best most loving, caring, "sweetheart' of a mother. they will never really know just how psychotic she could be. (and no offense to those that are psychotic). respect, well, i might give her the outwardly appearance of some resemblance of respect. but that's due to the type of abuse she put on me and how i'm dealing with it. but in my heart, i don't. not for who she is. and again, forgivness comes from within, when YOU are ready, not when everyone else says you should otherwise it's meaningless.
and if you're going to hell, i'll ride down in your handbasket!sweetheart. i hope your T calls too. and i think he has at times been a jerk to you, but i guess who can't right. but that doesn't matter right now. what matters is you need someone. and he for the most part has been there for you. you've said over and over again that you had such a great working relationship and you made such progress with him. So i will say a couple quick prayers and send good vibes your way in hopes that he calls this afternoon.
your nightmare will end my dear. it will. i don't know when. and i don't know how. but you are working WAY too hard for it to not.
and i'll be strong for you when you can't HF.
if you're wilted, it's probably cuz i've been taking care of you...dang that brown thumb. i'll give you some miracle grow, put you in a new pot with fresh soil, next to some shaded sunlight all day. maybe that can help.take care HF
b2c
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