Posted by All Done on March 30, 2006, at 16:43:07
In reply to Nightmare - sexually horrible -- big trigger, posted by daisym on March 30, 2006, at 15:23:09
(((Daisy))),
I'm sorry it's so hard.
Two weeks ago, I had a dream that my T raped someone and was being taken to jail in handcuffs. It was a high profile case and there were people and cameras all around. Everyone was screaming *about* him, and I was in the middle screaming *at* him, "how could you do this to me?" He said, "you can still come see me." I was so appalled and angry at him. I don't think I've actually ever experienced that much anger in my waking life. I woke up feeling horrible.
I think...because of the intensity of our relationsips with our therapists, it brings up or out these sometimes unbearably intense unconcious thoughts and trigger so many old, deep feelings that there's no place other than our dreams for them to come out. Maybe our dreams protect us from experiencing too much pain while we're awake. I don't know.
I wish I could help, but I can reassure you that you are not evil. You are not bad. And you are not harming your therapist. He is there for you to unload your past trauma. You are NOT doing to him what was done to you.
Let him help you through this.
Laurie
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