Posted by milly on January 25, 2006, at 6:30:56
In reply to attraction to therapist, trust....please help, posted by asmita on January 24, 2006, at 18:02:07
I can so identify with all you wrote (in fact it was scary reading it as I could have written it!!)
i am also in therapy for severe suicidal depression (? bipolar)and I too suddenly experienced this overwhelming intensity of feeling for my T. It was so strong that I felt it was something I had never experienced before (did that mean I had never loved before?)
My T is extremely perceptive and seemed to know what was going on before I did. I thought if he knew then I was bound to experience huge rejection/humiliation to the point that in my head I had him laughing and asking me to leave right there and then. However whenit finally got spoken about (which was done in a wierd 'I can't tell you this so you are just going to have to guess what I am thinking' way) needless to say there was no rejection or humiliation. It was as hard as anything to do (and then I had the worry that I would be the next joke in the staff commonroom) but for therapy to go anywhere I HAD to risk it and to trust him. When you feel able try it, it helps.
milly
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