Posted by happyflower on January 20, 2006, at 4:40:52
I don't know, I thought I was okay with what my T says, was going to accept it, not challenge it, respect it. But it does hurt, I feel like I am losing someone I really care about. Please don't say I can return to him if I need therapy again, it isn't what I mean.
I think I will have to find another time to work out because I think it will hurt too much to see him yet I can't talk to him.
I am not even done with therapy, but I feel like I am grieving the relationship already. I feel like pulling away, I don't want to get even more attached than I am , It will just make it harder to leave.
I feel we truely like each other, and it just sucks that we can't keep our connection when therapy is done. I just don't know how I can end it. I have only felt this bond with 2 others in my life, and even when they died, I still feel them within me. But he isn't dead, yet I have to pretend that he is. I think I will change my name to wiltedflower. :(
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thread:600988
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