Posted by cubic_me on December 9, 2005, at 11:16:58
In reply to Re: Levels of depression » cubic_me, posted by fairywings on December 9, 2005, at 10:14:18
Thankyou FW. I might end up going back to my GPs, though I can't see it being any different to before. The psychiatrist said the only thing left to try was lithium and I don't want to go on that unless I absolutely have to. I also don't want my suicide attempt (a couple of years ago) to go on my record. I know it would probably increase the support I'm getting but with the line of work I want to go into I can't risk it messing up my chances of employment. Even though it feels like I could kill myself I know from past episodes that I can sit at this level for months without acting one the feelings so waiting a little would just feel bad, it wouldn't be risky.
>>Is there anyone there you can talk to? Someone you can lean on?
My boyfriend has been really helpful in the past as someone to talk to and look out for me but he's getting a bit fed up with it now. He seems so happy when I'm ok, but when I'm not feeling great he just looks suprised because I appear ok and doesn't like it that I can hide my feelings from him so easily. I don't really talk about it otherwise, except online.