Posted by ali_b on December 9, 2005, at 0:05:39
Hi. I'm new. I posted once on newbies...but this is my first 'real one'. You all are so supportive of eachother...I admire every one of you....
I don't know what to say.
Just that I am feeling unlike myself and I have been like this on and off for a while.
Waiting and waiting.....
and waiting to feel better.
People ask how school is. 'Oh, it's good' (but I haven't gotten up all week, I will fail (again)if I don't make it to finals next week.)
I sit and stare at nothing. For hours. I see things in the corner of my eye. I feel disconnected. I wake up and I can't figure out where I am.
....but I am cheerful to company.
How can someone be so 'normal' in public and so crazy alone? How can it be so hard for me to accomplish things when I can put up such a good front? I can fake it. So nothing must be wrong. It's all in my head.
So I go to therapy.
...but sometimes I can't even make it to my T.
I have nothing to say to him.
I just want out.
(nervous, embarrassed, creeps slowly away...)
poster:ali_b
thread:587143
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20051206/msgs/587143.html