Posted by happyflower on November 30, 2005, at 20:46:40
In reply to Re: You are just too much! LOL » happyflower, posted by daisym on November 30, 2005, at 20:28:15
> I thought I would want that too. I think I put the pillow over my head the first time I really cried. And I apologized. He said, "isn't it OK to cry here? The rules are different here -- crying is totally allowed. I want to see your tears, you've needed to let them out for a long time."
I remember when I asked him what he would do if I cried. He said what do you think, I will throw you out of the room? LOL (he probably would like to sometimes but not because I cry.) My Dh used to be my support system where I could get all out, but now I cry alone and it isn't the same. I do trust my T completely and know he won't hit me or anything if I cry, but is is so scary to be so vunerable. Plus knowing he won't hug me, makes me what to avoid it at all costs. You know if he only knew that actuallly hugging me would let down my defenses, it would be a good thing probably. But he doesn't and won't.
> Now I cry all the time. I still apologize and he still tells me it is OK to cry. Last week I told him he was getting kleenax for Christmas. :)
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