Posted by alexandra_k on October 26, 2005, at 17:10:19
In reply to Re: i have been thinking... » alexandra_k, posted by cricket on October 26, 2005, at 11:01:07
> I hope you don't go away. I will miss you so much. You have helped me so much.
I hope you don't go away either. You help me too, you know. Maybe we should both stick around?
I'm waiting to see what happens with my internet access... It is possible that I won't be able to post anymore. I suppose it is probable that I will be asked to cut down. But I'm not sure. I have to wait and see.
I probably won't leave this board (internet access permitting). But I do need to get better at not posting when I'm in a bad place.
> I wish you could just go somewhere else where they could help you. Isn't that possible? What about student visas and such?No. Its not possible. Well... Yeah, I suppose I could apply to study in a different region. I might be able to get treatment in another region. But getting a job from there would be very tricky indeed. So yeah. I guess that when it comes down to it it is my possible career versus getting some help. And I can't have both and thus I must choose. And so yeah. I guess I choose to give everything I've got to the former. It helps to think of it as a decision, I suppose.
Its hard because I think that if I had both... Then my chances of getting through okay will be that much higher. But then I suppose that I've also learned... That having a therapist is absolutely no guarantee that that will be helpful. And I have to say that most... Seem to cause more harm than help.
So... I guess I'll just have to make do as best I can. And not dwell too much on whats going to happen if I have an episode.
> I mean I know the US is f*ed up in its very own special way but I think you'd get more help here.Yeah, but you guys have these nasty standardised tests called GRE that make a certain level of mathematical ability a pre-requisite for graduate study. Not everywhere, that is true. But I've exhausted my US options. Well... I suppose I could keep applying but your chances of getting in someplace you have already been turned down are very poor indeed. Not to mention very expensive just to apply.
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