Posted by fairywings on September 20, 2005, at 21:48:28
Last week when I went to my appt. my T was talking about my inner child, some might remember I went on about it ad nauseum, anyway, he said, "DON'T respond to the child the way your father would have!" Well, during the appt. I felt like a deer caught in headlights or something, kind of like my head was dizzy/swimmy or something. I kept thinking I wish he werent' sitting between me and the door.
Anyway, that night when I was sleeping, my husband got paged, and as I started coming out of my dream, I remembered my dream. My T had ahold of my wrists, was mad, and was yelling at me, "DON'T respond to the child...." It reallly freaked me out and I couldn't get back to sleep. I usually don't remember any dreams, or at least very few.
This whole week I've been kind of depressed, sometimes suicidally so, and I have NO idea why. My husband's been out of town, and I've been totally useless. My house is a mess, and I've basically told the kids, other than the 2 year old, to fend for themselves. I feel just weird, like I'm somewhere else, my head feels fuzzy. This whole thing has just set me off, and most of the time I feel like I"m going to vomit....oh, who was it who asked me about using that word, well, there it is again! I've lost 6 pounds since last thursday.
I went to my p-doc for my son's appt. today and normally he makes me nervous, today I didn't give a crap about anything, didn't even wear any make-up. And no, I didn't say anything to him. I really don't want to talk to him about this. I know it's stupid, but i don't.
Anyone have any ideas about the dream?
thanks,
fw
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