Posted by kerria on September 2, 2005, at 10:57:43
In reply to Re: Missed therapy AGAIN this week:(, posted by Emily Elizabeth on August 31, 2005, at 15:55:12
Thank you, (((((((((((EE))))))))))
you're right, i don't feel strong at all. mostly i just think of how much i hurt now and a lot of negative things about the way i am and why my H and T don't care about me. They stick with me because of a business contract.
It feels so very impersonal and empty when i need to feel connected and have real relationships .
tears.
i'm so lost because everything i am keeps changing and there's no real relationships to balance it out. And i need them so so much.
flashbacks today. i'm having audio flashbacks - hearing things i said, inside and feeling exactly like it's happening now.
It's so triggering when people who supposed to love you don't really care. it made me and makes me now so angry i say to H, to T but really to F
"Keep your hands off me.'tears
i wish somebody knows how to help .
kerria
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