Posted by kerria on August 30, 2005, at 23:25:48
i'm devastated- i NEED to see T so much and i missed therapy again today.
i hate my life. Everything is totally wrong.
i finally had my pain under control to leave and walk to the bus stop- two buses didn't come and the next was too late to get me to the connecting bus. i needed to see T. No one else can help with communication now,We see the terrible pain management dr-tomorrow - that doesn't believe i'm in pain and gives me this bad med that doesn't work well enough, keeps me up all night and sedates me all day.
H won't go with me tomorrow to the pain management dr- and i have no one else- no friends IRL. This dr is so abusive-when i'm alone there- he doesn't want to precribe the needed medicine- i always end up crying openly infront of everyone in the office. They think i'm a druggie . i'm not. i hurt so so badly and i have to depend upon this horrible dr for medicine.
He doesn't care if he makes me live in terrible pain.
i hate my life so much.
there's never any support IRL. so afraid of what's causing the pain and so afraid of the pain.thanks for listening . -----------------------------------------------------------------------------
i have to try and hold teddy, every thing is to hard. i miss T. No one ecept T is on my side.
C.A.
poster:kerria
thread:549014
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