Posted by daisym on July 28, 2005, at 10:54:39
In reply to Re: Wanting a mommy (long) trigger » daisym, posted by alexandra_k on July 28, 2005, at 4:13:11
What you said makes perfect sense. But what if I *am* going in the wrong direction here? I feel horribly selfish about wanting this and worse because I'm so destroyed not believing I'll have it.
Inside my head I wonder if I'd found and married my soul-mate, would I feel this way right now? I married a guy who needed me a thousand times more than I needed him and then I had kids who needed me and then I created a whole career around kids and families who need help...intellectually I can see all out put, no in put leaves a dry well.
But can anyone, ever, do for you what your mother didn't? Isn't it unconditional love I'm talking about? And this isn't possible in the adult world, with perhaps the exception being your kids. And it just isn't right to let them meet your needs, that is what happened to me essentially, right?
This is so hard.
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