Posted by alexandra_k on July 5, 2005, at 2:51:29
In reply to Re: sigh » alexandra_k, posted by pinkeye on July 4, 2005, at 12:15:07
> ...find it quite perplexing why you are not able to be happy..
I'm happy sometimes.
Not very often to be sure.
But I don't ever remember feeling that before DBT.
Sometimes my memory fails me.
I probably need to take more time when it isn't so much a feeling of joy but the absence of the kick you in the guts stabbing throbbing wounding pain that will not be ignored. I probably need to take the time to notice that it is not there. Instead of focusing on the dull ache focus on the fact that it receeds. That I can direct my attention away from it and it isn't screaming at me. And it allows itself to be ignored and forgotten. If only I take the time to realise that the stabbing throbbing wounding is not present and I can be happy there. In that moment. If I'll just take the time.I'm used to focusing on the background.
The background pain that never leaves
(Cannot leave)
Because it has to be there to justify treatment.Maybe the only way I'll get better is to move on.
Maybe moving on is the way to have it bite me in the *ss.I dunno.
Things get bad soon enough.
Try to find happiness in the moments of respite.
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