Posted by pinkeye on June 28, 2005, at 17:46:57
In reply to Re: For all » pinkeye, posted by Dinah on June 28, 2005, at 17:37:54
No that is fine Dinah.. You are being right in a way. Maybe he really thinks an one liner wouldn't help me..
But really, I am hurting more this way with abruptness than anything else..
It is perhaps not a good idea to assume worst intentions - that is why I didn't go in that path for the last 5 months.. I thought somehow he had my best intentions and somehow this is for my good. But really, after telling him how much it bothered me, and if he still continues to be silent, I really can't understand why it would be good for me ?? I would never do that if I were a therapist. And I dont' see the reason why anybody would think it is a good thing. If he really wanted to make me look into my problems with dad and see how I could be projecting it to him, mabye atleast he can tell me that?? right? He could have said, "I know you are going through a severe transference, and I really would like if you continue to work on that and understand what is really bothering you with your current T.".. something like this would have indicated to me that he atleast cared about me. Now I am beginning to doubt even that - no caring person would leave someone - especially after I told him that I really understand it is about my trasnference with my dad and it is really not about him, and I thought of him as my dad in some way.. I really tried to extend myself as much as possible. I told him I understood that he is perhaps not used to treating long time patients, or dealing with transference, that Indian psychiatry is not that advanced probably, and he should read more of these kind of discussion boards to understand how much of a torture patients go through when they have transference etc.
Beyond this, would any client be more understanding ?? I really don't know. I told him I really am aware that I am projecting a lot of stuff on to him, that there was possibly lot of miscommunication throught emails and I know he is very busy - but all I asked for is a brief email once in 3 - 4 months for coupel of times more while I move on. I explicitly asked only for this. And beyond this I really don't know what I should have done better.
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