Posted by wheeler on June 23, 2005, at 8:09:37
In reply to Re: Yes, Wheeler, so good.. » 10derHeart, posted by Susan47 on June 22, 2005, at 22:03:13
Thanks so much, you guys really are amazing!
Tuesday the 28th is my last appointment and I'm still trying to understand it all. Like most of you, I have read and read and read, and intellectually I think I have a grasp, but it still hurts none-the-less.
One of my biggest problems is the anxiety I feel in between sessions and when my T goes away. I also have anxiety in my sessions and many times I struggle to talk, although sometimes I am succesfull.
I have been seeing my T for about 3 1/2 years about other non-anxity issues, (relationship problems, depression, attachment stuff...etc). Most of these issues have been addressed and resolved. However the anxiety in between and during sessions is still there.
For the past 6 - 8 months we have been working on termination and my hope was that the angst/anxiety regarding therapy would be gone, or at least diminished, but it hasn't. At this point my therapist has said that she sees no reason for me to continue as my 'real' issues have been addressed and she's done all she can with the anxiety but it looks like I just have to deal with it! She said that it appears that therapy is causing me to have anxiety so if I stop therapy my anxiety will stop.
Does this seem right? I'm pretty much ok with terminating, but I don't understand how it's ok for me to leaving knowing that I'll still have anxiety/angst. I really don't want to spend another 6 months working towards termination but I'm scared of the angst.
I'm also pretty angry with my therapist about this. I feel like she's 'dumping' me.